hmmm.. after tinking back for awhile.. i kinda regretted..
i tink i did alot of things without using my head..
i didn't listen to advises given to me..
ys told me.. nv to giv in too much in a relationship..
but all the while i have been giving in.. ><..
tammy jie told me..
"it just makes us feels like u give in. we know things we are doing is wrong. yet u give in. it makes us girls feels like u dont care."
guess i need to work on my giving in character x.x..

my fren(wont be saying name) once warned me..
nv to buy so much things for her.. cos i might spoil her..
but i didn't listen ><.. but its not my real intention to spoil her..
i jus wan her to be happy seeing her new equipments & i wan to see her improve..
i noe she wont get spoil so easily..
but guess i overdid it..

but i nv had a single though of making her feel that after buying things for her.. she will be mine.. nv once.. what gives is given.. will nv be return.. unless its lending or borrowed..
as long as shes happy.. im happy..
i noe some adults might say.. my way of tinking.. if its still in their time.. it will be heroic.. but as for our generations now.. its called stupid..
but i dun care..
all i wan is her to be happy.. and smile always..

my jealousy & emotions sides of me were blinding me to realise..
now that i realise all this..
i had my chances.. but i wasted it..
over and over again..
but its too late now..
i tink i deserve this punishment..

i hope i will never make all this mistakes again in the future..
i hope she could giv me another chance..
but the hopes are very slim..

but even if we are not meant to be..
i hope we can be the best of friends like how we were when we 1st met.. (:

i hope u do ur best for ur termtest papers~
i already failed 1 and pass 1 and 1 last paper still pending.. which is tml..
guess what.. ur short stabs are here!
i guess this will be the 2nd last thing i will buy for u now ba..